How I feel

For the past couple of months, I have been getting closer to God. I try to spend time with him everyday reading to get some peace and clarity in my life. Its been working but it is a process so I still tend to get upset over some things. This year I set some goals and I haven't yet reached them but I realized that I didn't include God in them or better yet put him first so I understand why I haven't accomplished them. I get disappointed with myself when I set goals and don't accomplish them because it makes me feel like a failure, but in the past couple of months spending time with God has truly made me appreciate who I am yet becoming and helped me realize I need to slow down and take one thing at a time. That's why I chose to start with my relationship with God because I am a firm believer in once that one the right track everything else will fall into place. Financially this year has been difficult, some things were our fault and some couldn't be helped but God is truly teaching me how to lean on him in hard times and I have begun to understand the importance of keeping a good attitude while you're going through because it shows faith and activates God's power. I'm learning to speak to my mountains about how big my God is. God is helping me release some pains I have felt in my life. i spend 33 years looking for my father and his family and in March I found them. They didn't hesitate to welcome me with open arms and a lot of questions were answered. I began to understand more about who I am and where I came from. So this is the beginning of my blog, I'm not real good about opening up but I'm determined to be free by the end of this year