*sigh*

This will be my first blog, I never really like to put my feelings out there because people can use it against you but I thought a blog maybe a good theraputic way for me to get my thoughts out. Today started it out fine, I got some much needed attention from the hubby but I was out yesterday in the cold and woke up not feeling very well. I made myself get dressed for work and tried to go but when I got there I just felt worse so I went home. I feel like I might as well stayed there cause these people in my house are a trip. I just want to know why I can never live in a house where everyone does their share. Why do I always have to be the one that does everything. So ok let me give you some insight to my life. I'm married and I have 6 children, four of which were not born to me but are my husbands but they are mine all the same. I have 3 of them living with me, my two and then one of my stepdaughters. I also have my bestfriend whom is a guy living here too. So you have 6 people living in a 2 bedroom apartment. Well it was my hubby's idea to let him move in so he could help us with my daughter until she got in school, well she's in school and I'm ready for him to go. I feel bad but I am, he is working my nerves, but I'm trying to help him get on his feet but its taking longer than I expected. Then there is my hubby, i love him of course but he can work my nerve too. Everytime I ask him to fix dinner, he either doesnt or he take forever doing it. Now when I was at home I didnt mind taking on the bulk of the house work, but I work and go to school so I need help. Now my children are helpful, my stepdaughter does what I ask and my son well i have to curse him out but he does help too. My daughter is 2 and she usually messes up but its to be expected. I'm really getting tired of having to go to work, school and take care of the house, I'm ready to just stop doing it all and to hell with everyone and let them figure it out themselves